Not my plan, but God’s

I’ve been encouraged to share my experience as a stay at home mom and anything else that is on my mind. Honestly, I’ve been running from this for a while. Mostly out of fear. I didn’t feel like I had anything to say. Here goes nothing.

After 10 plus years of working in corporate America, it was time to take a break. It was time for a change. I thought that change would have been another job, but instead the Lord brought me home. Honestly, I didn’t understand why at first, but with each day, more clarity comes.

Truth is, I was in need of a break. Not only was my work environment VERY toxic and unhealthy, but over the last four years, I suffered some hard losses. In July 2012, I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer (stage 4). In 2014, I lost my grandmother. She was my rock and so much more. And finally, in 2015, I suddenly lost my mother. Talk about “world rocking.” That’s exactly what happened. Definitely never thought those three people would transition as early as they did, but God’s timing is always right. During a conversation, about everything going on,  with a close friend of mine, she said, “you need a break.” Oh, she was right. But I would be lying to you if I said everything has been great, because it hasn’t.

Being a stay-at-home mom was never the plan. Especially for someone who likes to work, outside of the home. The first couple of weeks felt like I was on an extended vacation with my daughter. Then, it hit me like a ton of bricks. This was going to be my everyday until God said different. I have dreams and aspire to do many things in my life. I had to ask God, “why bring me home?” Well, after a year and four months at home, I’ve learned my friend was right, I needed a break. And God reminded me He knows all and what is best for me.

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.- Jeremiah 29:11 (NKJV)